Tuesday was kind of philosophy of science and the teacher begins to say that everything feels a loser when it will cave, which is made to a corner and begins to watch them all. Then observe the behavior of individuals and all social rituals that occur in that environment.
I was too identified with what he said. I suppose many would pass. To me I really dislike most about going to nightclubs and bars in those where people dance. I really feel ridiculous at the moment I set foot inside. Sometimes it is very difficult to ride the situation, especially in such circumstances. I also ask myself aside, I sit and watch.
This is something I have done a long time, but began to become more recurring act in high school.
Before entering high school, I was in a very small school. When I entered high school, I was surprised by the large number of young people gathered in one place. In the case of my high school there were some common areas for all students. Some gathered in the main little square, others in "house" and some other nomads sat on benches outside of these countries. The people were gathered in one place according to their social status. In my high school were very few, were all equal, and while we gathered in small groups derrepente for recess, we were under the fuchi and we went out together. I had no idea of different labels exist in the secular only were the ready and idiots ... and really gave him no great importance.
In high school, a chance encounter people I met with "good" but I had no idea there was such marked social classes in youth. I found terms that I had never heard before: strawberries, freaks, goths ... among others. People also spent time with their peers in class quality of life I discovered that these were called "peers." always felt really outsider because although it became very good friends, and all kinds, I never felt that qualified for any of the classifications. When I say this is not for me the "original" or "unique", this was something that really made me sick during my puberty. I looked too normal to be freak, and inside was too freak to be normal. I felt alone, separated from others, why I was not very difficult to get myself out observe the social and youth from another perspective.
In places like high school, clubs, establishments in general, I always feel enclosed in a box. A box with some function. Dens for example, have a function that does not make sense to me. For starters, you pay to enter a box, a box full of smoke (depending on location), a box full of noise, a crowded box, a box full of alcohol. People will drink alcohol this overpriced box, to fill their lungs with smoke, listening to music with an overwhelming volume and disclosed. To me it makes no sense, personally, I feel like masochism. You maltratándote yourself, making a damaging social event ... The box is an illusion, then it seems that life is there, people trying to survive, coexist with others live .. This box is full of emotions, pheromones, intentions, rituals ... but it is only one box. So ridiculous ... Who came up with a ball lock people in such a place?
I must admit that I have gone to other clubs, but often they are told. Almost always a compromise ... I can not remove me from society, after all, I must allow flow carried away by the social from time to time. But since last year I went to Playa del Carmen and I grabbed his ass 3 times in different clubs (and was not even dancing ... was bitter philosophizing) decided not to step on a dive back NEVER AGAIN. So my time has passed observation of social behavior in club's night.
As I was saying all this is that I'm glad, thanks to my teacher, I'm not the only rare that it does.
I think people who feel as I feel this way:
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